Today we had a dear lady from church come out and take our family photos and took special photos of Gary and the kids together. I have two family pictures now about a year and 4 months apart from each other. The one taken 16 months ago will be the image that I hold in my mind of our family that was really the last time Gary looked like Gary. I will cherish today's photos because they show us now a family that has been drawn even closer together by a horrible disease and a Daddy that even as sick as he is still came outside and even laid on the ground just to get a pic with his girls. Thank you and may God bless the amazing photographers in our life Jeff Westcott Photography and Rebecca Harvin you guys are so wonderful thank you for giving this family memories to cherish no matter what tomorrow holds!!!!!

A Step we were dreading

Tuesday I got called into a meeting with the social worker from our Oncologists office and she recommended that we bring in Hospice. I broke down in to tears to me this was the day I was dreading because in my mind this was it. If it was going to take Gary's hope away I was not going to bring them in. Thankfully it did not we found out that it would be an amazing benefit and he could continue the treatments he was all ready on. The information specialist came out Friday and told us the amazing care that they would provide and it was such a blessing. They are going to send a nurse out three or more times a week and a CNA to help with hygiene and a Chaplain and a volunteer to come out and spend some time with the kids giving them a some much needed special attention. I am still not thrilled with the idea of Community Hospice being such a HUGE part of our lives but I think it will be a huge blessing for this family. The social worker even said our days are numbered by God and Gary may outlive us all but we need to realize that the doctors cannot cure him but God still can but we need the services of Hospice until that day comes. Even the Hospice lady said we will gladly discharge you if God heals you and we will rejoice with you but lets take care of you now and that made us feel so much better. My heart still hurts every time I say the word HOSPICE but I am thanking God that this place is here to relieve some of the heaviness of the intense care that Gary needs right now and we can use this time to enjoy each other more.
Please continue to lift the entire family as we walk in to this new area please remember Gary's entire family this cancer effects so many and my heart breaks for his parents and brothers and grandmother I get to see him everyday I can put my hands on him as much as I want love on him whenever but they cant they have to observe from the outside and I know that has got to be so difficult.

Praise - Our God supplies all of our needs this week by Gods grace and His servants we had several needs filled in one evening and it was so overwhelming just to know that God knows all our needs and I thank God for the people He has blessed us with that listen to His leading and I pray that God would bless all that have sewn into us so very much
THANK YOU SO MUCH DEAR FAMILY AND FRIENDS WE ARE SO GRATEFUL FOR EACH OF YOU

Yesterday we celebrated Gary's 42nd Birthday it was a bitter sweet day. Sweet because honestly if you would have asked me at christmas if he was going to be here on his birthday, I would have told you, I seriously doubt it.Bitter because the whole party had to center around Gary's hospital bed.
He is to the point now he can stay awake for an hour or so but thats about it. I am exhausted the kids are going nuts with worry and misbehaving really really badly. Life is NUTS he has seven more days of radiaiton then it is back on the chemo.
I sometimes, well most of the time, am stressed beyond belief but God continues to suprise me with blessings. When my car broke down this weeek God sent me to a family mechanic who helped me with some deep discounts and then God provided for a good portion of the rest of the bill. We had food brought by a bunch of saints from church and then his work sent some food too so God has met us where we were and helped us. He hasnt gotten us out of the fire but He has walked with us thru the fire.
I am going between standing in faith and preparing myself for his funeral. If I seem really random right now thats about how I feel. If you think about us this week please pray for miracles as we finish up dissabilty at work and thu social securtity.
Most of all please oray that the healing we have all begged God for would happen and this family would have their Sweet Daddy back.