Hospital stay

Gary went to his regular doctors apt on Thursday and he was so weak and in so much pain that they put him straight in the hospital. Thank God his Dad was there and he stayed with him while he got settled then his mom came and spent Thursday with him in the hospital. I went home and settled the children and got our bags packed and joined him in the hospital on Friday morning. While at the hospital they discovered the reason for the bad pain was an increase in the diffusion of the cancer in his right hip and left shoulder. That is not what we wanted to hear we wanted to hear it was going away :(. They were able to get him a walker and even a hospital bed to help his mobility. Those were delivered today and he is now sleeping comfortably in a nice new hospital bed. I take him to see the radiation oncologist on Monday for him to begin radiation treatments on the hip and shoulder in hopes that would alleviate his pain. Understandably he is scared his Independence is being threatened he feels like his life is being stripped from him one piece at a time and in a way it is. With this pain simple tasks like going to the bathroom have become almost impossible for him. The girls see his rapid decline the last couple weeks and it has scared them to death the idea of daddy not beating this cancer seems more real to them and it scares them Daddy is their best friend :(. I am just spent emotionally, physically, spiritually in all ways. I thank God for family and friends that help with the kids and help mow lawns and move furniture. Friday night the girls were picked up by one of the leaders at church and brought to a youth event and that just was the biggest stress relief for them they got to go and have fun and be a kid and not think about cancer and that just was such a blessing. We had visitors probably half the day on friday wich brightened both of us we also got what the volunteer said was the record for most "cheer cards" in one day :)and then a friend mowed our lawn today and family came and helped move stuff for the hospital bed they even helped me wheel gary in to the house. Thank you to all of you who participated in Operation Save Cindys sanity this weekend and operation Cheer Gary up:) Each and everyone of you are such a blessing we could not do it with out you.